Time Out in Tennessee

February seems like a lifetime away! Bill & I headed there the 11th for a week of Grandkid memories.  So glad we could give support as Teg & Mik headed on a Family Life Cruise for their 15th anniversary.  Fun times around the table, at Jet's wrestling practice, family T-ball at the park, reading, chatting during our chaufferuing duties, watching "Zootopia", and ending with a scavenger hunt, executed by Boppa at the local PetSmart.

What I didn't expect, being "prayed up" and excited, was the reminders from long ago "Mommy" days --of not being as capable as I had imagined.  My gut honest feelings that I wrote down on my flight out of town:

TN 2/2017

"Humbling.  Being the Grammalita that I long to be is way more difficult than my expectations ever imagine.  I see myself thru rose colored lenses: kind, gentle, patient, creative, wise, even-tempered. Then I play mom/ teacher/ Gramma/ cook/ housekeeper/ game guru/ reader of books extraordinaire/ laundress/ chauffeur and I fall apart.  I only really yelled about 5 times in 7 days; however who am I trying to kid?  Even when I keep my voice low and even, those perceptive kids can tell a frustrated granny- and it translates to "mean".  It seems like when I should be prayed up and full of the Holy Spirit, Marlita shows up instead. How, how, how- does the transforming work of the spirit of God work?? What am I missing?"